I wanna RUN!

It's that time again. The sun is starting to be warmer on my skin. The days are starting to stretch out. Our Live Oak has millions I'd bright green NEW growth leaves. My roses are blooming. I am dying to get outside & really start moving. Get those projects done. Soak up the Vitamin D I want to get this body healthy again. I have started the long road--I went Gluten Free on October 31st, 2011. It was an incredibly HARD thing to do. But through huge encouragement from one of my closest friends & harsh encouragement from my Dr... I did it. And I don't think I will ever go back. Sure I miss bread occasionally or having to ask or research GF recipes/ingredients/if something IS actually GF can be a pain...but I know it's better for my body. But on top of eating better and smarter for me... I want to get outside and... RUN RUN RUN RRRRRRUUUUUUNNNNN! I really miss it. I miss the quietness that comes over me. I miss that alone time I was getting. I miss solving the worlds problems in my head. I miss how it made me feel and the exercise it gave to get my physical self healthier. After the spinal surgery it took SO LONG to recupe...running makes me feel & see how far I've come from (not walking). Why can't I get out there? Nope it's not weather, nor lack of ambition... Just pain. Apparently I did something to my right heel after my 5K in October and it's not healed right or at all. So it's off to the Podiatrist... I just have to get there...

I can at least sit outside & get some of that beautiful sunshine on my skin... For Now!

Time for bed...but first...

I am trying so hard to get caught up on this... but it's been crazy! I guess that is a good thing as it is such a different crazy - healing process - from even 1 month ago!!

Today was a good day. A good, good day. I have been writing a lot of my hard days... I needed to write of the good day even though I wanted to be in bed already...

I was up WAY too early - 5am... to drive Nana to the airport. And for those of you that know me well - I am SO not a morning person... to put it mildly. Goodbyes at the airport are always hard for me. And today was no different, it was sad - but I truly focused on the good parts of seeing her & laughing with her. PLUS I got to see the sunrise... I haven't seen that for a long time and...

it. was. so. beautiful.

As I drove home I looked out over the gorgeous bays, the beautiful water and I realized how blessed I am to be where I am. The weather warmed over the course of the day and I smiled.

I went to PT... My therapist - she just got engaged while she was on vacation in Vail last week... so sweet. She was all giddy and happy and it made me remember how Mr Safety-Man asked me to marry him...on our Mt. Batty... overlooking Camden, ME harbour... GORGEOUS. Water is in our lives... it's part of us.

I had a GREAT session with PT Jackie. She is just FAB. Boy did she make me work... and then worked on my soft tissue in mes fesses/derriere/cheeks/oh and the back too ... ouch - but awesome. "You'll feel this tomorrow" she said with a smile... but it's a good "feel" - pain that means I am getting better. She told me about how my muscles have atrophied a) from not using them for so long due to pain & b) from being pried open during surgery - lack of movement/blood circulation... BUT that she could feel some improvement. That's good right?!

I came home - exhausted... got to read a favorite novel and finish AND take a little nappy! All while my dear Mr Safety-Man re-did ALL our back roof/facia board and soffet work (ok I KNOW I spelled that wrong... but oh well). Noisy - but didn't stop me from dozing! THEN...

Off to a personal one-on-one training using reflexology/stretching/& core muscle stimulating/with a slight bend towards pilates... WOW! That was AWESOME, HARD, and just felt so rewarding. "Youll feel this tomorrow" was heard again. Currently I am still feeling pretty good! I was in awe... first in how BADLY I am in shape and can barely move through some of the exercises but impressed with how encouraging she was that I was only 4 months post-op... and second and I guess more importantly how far I have come in a short year...since my surgery 4 months ago. It truly is amazing and I am so blessed.

Then I picked up the girls. They were both not 100% - but despite some testiness here and there, necessary unwell pediatrician visit, and bookstore visit (which was the saving grace for us all) - the girls and I had a NICE afternoon/evening! They even tried chick peas for dinner without toooo much of a fuss... (some gagging on Boo's part but she wasn't feeling all together great anyway).

Ending with some laughs on TV with snuggles with mr safety-man, a terrific online chat with 2 dear people, and a relaxing quiet eve...

I liked today... I really did.