Sew... much to do and 'darn'-ing needles... no time to do it!

ok... CHEESY play on words... I know!

I've decided that getting busy doing 'things' seems to be pretty important for my state of mind - not being on the verge of tears all the time, and to be pleasant to be around... SOoooo! One of the things that has helped me to keep myself occupied is of course to do lots of creative projects. One of them is to re-organize my back room to become a studio using a lot of Mr Safety-Man's mom's craft, sewing, knitting, etc supplies we brought back from Maine!! This actually has me excited and happy about something. I just have to get moving on it - so I can actually start being creative!!

Back in the spring - when I made the sweet shirts (if I do say so myself *blush*) for my girls - I really felt self-gratification and fulfillment in sewing. I just felt whole. Between sewing & clay - I am finding a calling I think, something I truly enjoy to do something I would like to do forever, something I would love to follow in to some kind of profession. Oooooooo to own my own shop...there I go dreamin' again...

While I was in Utah - trying to heal with my sister & family. I had just read about some cute summer sundresses on a sweet blog called Create and Delegate - right before everything happened. It dawned on me while I was there...PERFECT!! I thought it would help Cynn and I have something to focus on, something to be able to talk together, plan together, and for the little girls - something to look forward to!

We toodled over to Bernina Fabrics...I thought I had died and gone to fabric heaven... If I lived in Logan I think I would go broke! WHY can't we have a store like this? I wish they had a website where you could purchase fabric because it was GORGEOUS!!!!

Sewing in Utah helped me to maintain being creative, gave some shopping therapy, and yet it helped occupy our minds too. My love for sewing just GREW... it was a healing experience. Cynn (my hero) and I had a few nights alone working together where we could cry, laugh, talk, cry some more, be silly, mad, creative, and just be sisters who are trying to heal from such a tragedy. It was truly a bonding time and helped us to slowly start to make sense of things. I will treasure those nights. I look at the pretty dresses we accomplished and cute bags... and it means more to me than ever...

We also decided to make "Discovery Bags" for all five of the kiddos. We thought up the name because the kiddos could use them as they "discovered the world"... on a hike, walk, bike ride, or walking down to The Pioneer Parade. They worked perfect for that - we should know because we did all of the above! They could pick up items, hold water bottles etc... perfect for holding what they needed!
Cynn and I even decided to make something for ourselves... I tried a dress like the girls.
Well it didn't exactly look as cute on me...
as them...

I do l.o.v.e my dress...The fabric is just beautiful. It's comfey and airy and fun to wear. And I ended up making this one at my mom's house - so doing it together with Cynn & Mom was really special.

I just need to tweak it here and there to fit a bit less like a hmmmm 'moo-moo' I guess. Cynn decided that she was going to use her fabric differently (seeing my dress on me without the belt... i don't blame her lol) and we didn't get to finish hers...kinda a bummer - but she will create something beautiful or else I will for her! It did help us to pass the time in a creative way, helping us to have something to focus on rather than dwelling on our grief and helped us to spend quality time together.

I. LOVE. SEWING!!!! I REAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYY DO!

I cannot wait to get started on more projects! Stay tuned for treasures from Gramma San's house... ooooo the projects I can do with some of the neat stuff we brought home!!!

P. R. O. C. R. A. S. T. I. N. A. T. I. O. N... at it's finest...

Call it the weather... Call it not feeling 100% today... nope let's call it what it is... PROCRASTINATION... I cannot get motivated to flippin' get this house all cleaned up for the arrival of my sister-in-law and her 4yr old tomorrow. IT REALLY NEEDS IT TOO! It's been MONTHS since this house has had an overhaul - and we're trying. Mr Safety-Man did a GREAT job at keeping up with as much as he could! We've even started to organize our garage FINALLY... But let's face it folks... I am down to the last minute of getting the interior done... that last CRUNCH time... she'll be here tomorrow night! Sigh...

I have been working though... for the most part... ALLLL the Christmas stuff is packed away, up in the attic (as of last night), and gone till next year. It's kinda sad looking in my house right now (Safety-Man TOTALLY disagrees... he thinks it's not as cluttered) - I love Christmas decos... and miss the warm feeling they bring me! BUT it's done and taken care of - and I did 95% of it on my own!! YAY! I worked my tail off yesterday and got A LOT more accomplished... yet... there's SO MUCH MORE TO DO (isn't there always something to do????)!!

So what do I do now, after doing a few chores? Sit down, check e-mail, check my favorite blogs, and well hmmmm start typing this post! I could chastise myself till the cows come home (and in this house we don't own any cows... so that would be a long time) but I would still be waiting to accomplish all my tasks until the last minute! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Could I actually say I work well under pressure? I think my family would disagree.

I would love to say it's because my back's not been great this week, or that I'm exhausted (it's true I am), or that I am totally "sensitive" this week (and we ALL know what THAT means). And I am sure that that is part of what is going on... but I think the biggest thing - is that having 3 months "off" - even though it was painful, boring, depressing, etc - was kinda a nice break! It's hard to get back in to the swing of normal day-to-day life. I also think I am realizing that I have always been a crunch time kinda gal... sigh... Hard to embrace that - but true.

So now it is time to get my tookus (new favorite word) off the couch... stop writing this post and go put thousands (ok well maybe not that much...) but MANY loads of laundry away in my room - so it finally looks like a room and not a giant un-organized closet of a room. Then maybe I will have some warmth in this body and I can go clean both bathrooms... (did I mention that it's already 11:52PM?) THEN... THEN I will feel like I am ALMOST caught up!!

After all... she doesn't arrive till 9pm tomorrow... and after physical therapy in the AM I still have the entire day...

Right?!