Two songs... that really have me emotional tonight...

The first is a familiar one to most... Greenday's Time of Your Life...
http://www.ilike.com/artist/TIME+OF+YOUR+LIFE/track/GREENDAY

"Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
So make the best of this task
and don`t ask why.
It`s not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
It`s something unpredictable
but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.
For what it`s worth,
it was worth all the while.
It`s something unpredictable
but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life."

It`s something unpredictable
but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life."
It`s something unpredictable
but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life."

A hard song for me to listen to tonight... but hey it's allowing me to get some of these feelings out... silently crying, silent & alone, sitting here, thinking about how much I will miss her, how my poor girls will be so sad without their grammy san. How much she has meant to this family. How close I have become to her... a lady of strength. I truly hope she's had the time of her life... She has added to mine...

The second song is from Skillet... Called Rest. A song that's helping me try to grasp all this crap (because that's exactly what it is)... a song that somewhere somehow is trying to give me peace... http://www.ilike.com/artist/Skillet/track/Rest (ignore the video... i don't think it's theirs)
Still, soft quietly spoken voice, that persistently calls my name,
And quickens my heart to come, And I come

And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of Your Grace,
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of You

Embraced in the promise of You, Is rest for the weary soul,
Releasing all that is mine I reach for You

And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of Your Grace,
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of You

Take the old and You make it new, Everything I give to You,
You're the hope that can pull me through, HALLELUJAH!!!
HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH!

And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of Your Grace,
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of You

I love you so much San/Mom.

Please give me strength Lord. You are the hope that can pull me through.