Will this week ever end?

I feel like ca-ca. There I said it. I actually had to stay home from school (teeheehee that sounds funny) because I feel so blecky. It's a bunch of things wrapped in to one shell of a person today... but I will feel better soon.

I was told by my GOOD Dr (the one I trust completely whom I know has my best interest at heart & doesn't try to shove a bunch of chemicals at me) that I had to take care of me - in order to combat the overwhelming feelings, the not-feeling-100% ALL THE TIME - feelings, and just lack of energy. 
So I e-mailed the teachers I won't be in and am off to take a nappy... I feel guilty - but I don't want to get more run down and get them sick either. I've got a lot to do - but if I get more sick I won't be able to do it right? (Notice the inner war here??)

Most of the obligations are done for the week - Today for the most part I can relax. But yet there are quite a few others coming up. I have to do my lists - and that will help me for sure. I just am lacking the energy. Two nights in a row I've fallen asleep on the couch before 10pm! That is UNHEARD OF for me...

Plus I miss my baby girls today... It was not the greatest mornings for any of us so that didn't help.

Taken at Easter - but love the photo

Hmmmm a nap?! I haven't taken one of those in so long... I hope I wake up with minus one doozy of a headache and no rest of the aches and pains. Moosey will snuggle with me... I guarantee he will jump on the bed when I'm fast asleep and he's so sneaky I won't figure it out until I wake. Silly 90lbs puppy!!

Yes he steals my empty bottles from the recycling...silly puppy!

The bed's calling me...

T-Minus One Day...

...and counting... and starting to stress just a tad! Mr Safety-Man and I are heading out and up to Maine one more time for now... We're flying in an eensy-wheeney (such a funny word) plane.

I. am. SO. NOT. happy. about. THAT.

(tante pis for me... French for TOO BAD)

I have really nothing ready for our MAD drive from Maine to Florida... just Mr Safety Man and I for HOURS UPON HOURS in a uhaul truck! Oh Heavens NO NO NOoooooooooooo little girlies on this trip... oh my no. The thought even scares me!!! We're plowing through starting July 3rd and need to be home by July 5th PM. OH what a wonderful 4th of July weekend we're going to be having eh?! Eat a burger or something grilled for me would ya?! Enjoy those fireworks...

I'll be in a car for 12 hour stretches...see ya on that black pavement... oh wait - no you'll be enjoying fireworks and cookout... I forget!!

Do I have anything packed? Nope. Do I have the girls packed to go to our most wonderful, dear, awesome friend for helping us out YET AGAIN with our kiddos and our furry/scaled kiddos? Nope. Do I have a clean house? Nope. Do I have laundry done? Nope... ah shucks.

The house is in a complete uproar due to the GREAT CLEAN-UP & OUT (echo sound to be heard here) of the garage and turning the (non) living room to a Library (cue angelic music when you read Library (cue))! We are so excited... so yep - been spending every waking moment thinking, planning, sorting, organizing, moving, lifting, cleaning, cleaning, throwing out, more throwing out, yard-sale pile-ing it, getting ready for the new library (cue that music again!).

What spurred all GREAT CLEAN-UP & OUT was of course in preparation for Mr Safety-Man's Mom's stuff coming down in the MAD drive on Friday... are we ready? NOPE!!

So in T-Minus One Day... are we prepared and ready to venture on our trip and drive down lots more STUFF?!

... Can you guess what I am going to say?!

The answer is... well i am sure you already know...sigh

Check out this link... (hope it works) - here's a sneek peek at all the changes happening in our new library... oooooooooo i am so excited!!!!

You will probably have to log in - IF - (oh so IF) this link works!!

[DELETED LINK... it didn't work sigh.]

Cannot seem to get my mind engaged

I have a lot of things in my head going round and round... and yet I cannot remember a thing. NOT ONE THING! I usually pride myself on my memory. I will fully admit that once I got pregnant I lost some of my memory pride... HOWEVER... I thought it was all coming back!

There's a lot of things going on here... is it enough to erase my memory? I used to multi-task so much better! I mean I ran my own database group, had tons of meetings, ran meetings, deadlines, schedules, prioritized, that was me! ugh...

Today I missed my personal training appointment. NAMASTE my bottom. I was so mad. This is the second time. I wish I could say I had a good reason. The first time missed - the girls didn't have school on Monday. On Tuesday (my appt day) I thought it was Monday all day... so miss 1. Today... well there was- absolutely no reason... at all - except my minds been very occupied lately - and I just buried myself in cleaning. Big time. Well at least the house looks good - or at least is starting to look good! Boo hoo... I know.

It seems like a lot is going on all at once. And what started as a peaceful - yet filled with thinking - type of day - has turned in to kind of a stressful day. So maybe my mind's TOO engaged? Too many decisions to make, too many unknowns, too many emotions. I guess?!

But I did get in my exercising tonight! I still cannot believe I can do some of the things I have been doing lately! It is so refreshing... it's been TOO long. YES!

Surgery in only 8 hours...

I am wigging out...
I am anxious...
But I am hopeful!

My next post will be after surgery - here's hoping!!!!

I am so thankful for all the support I've been given. It means more to me than I could ever express...