A LoVeLy start to Spring BREAK!

Our campsite!

We were fortunate enough to be able to go to Fort Wilderness for the beginning of Spring Break... We probably should have stayed home...but we SO needed to "get away". It just was not long enough. I really felt that this was so needed for our family right now. We are going through some HIGH stress with Mr Safety-Man's work but mostly dealing with the news of his mom having cancer... yep...he had to work - but not too long!

Needless to say Mr Safety-man's been very pre-occupied with all of that, traveling up to Maine to be with his Mom for a long weekend, AND his supervisor position with USA hockey. The seminars, supervising tournaments, and reffing has had him away from us for many weekends. We just needed to be Marriners. To be family. To get away from the stress. To just get away. To swim and play. To relax. To have fun. To love and be loved!!

I still cannot believe we went swimming...brrrrrr

The girls were ALL over their Daddy... I loved watching it! We ALL - YES - ALL - even Mommy went swimming. It was chilly - but the gleeful squeals and giggles from their little bodies made it all worth it!

my favorite crinkly nose giggles Always a mess this one... always a super, sweet smile

They were absolute ANGELS! And when I say that - I REALLY mean it!! There was really no trouble at all - and we had some long days/nights! Oh it was so worth it. I even relaxed! I had fun! I camped! I enjoyed! I smiled! I laughed! I played! I swam! I loved my family! And we made memories!

Oh I could add so many more photos... but you get the idea... a lovely start to a wonderful Spring Break 2010~!!

I just LOVE being with my babes. These times together are awesome!

Giveaway - heck someday I'll win...

yep... I don't even have to say the name probably... but I will because I SO SUPER LOVE THEM... The Vintage Pearl... giveaway... extra entry if I blog about it - and well - why not - they're awesome... go here...
to see the heart's giveaway... which do you like? I like them both - but the first one seems to fit me best...

Maybe someday soon I will win... sommmmmmmmmmmeday! Can't hurt to keep trying!

Please forgive me of time wasted...

A song by Nickel Creek resonates with me today...

Let's back up for a sec... I ADORE, heart, love Nickel Creek (my most favorite song is The Lighthouse Tale - such a gorgeous, haunting love song...but will talk about that another time - oh so love that song!).

I digress... they have another song called Doubting Thomas... and THIS song is the one that resonates with me right now... Don't watch the video it is not theirs... (& it didn't match with what the song meant to me). Just listen... it really can take all different meanings. For me... it has everything to do with what's going on here in my life - right now. Again I am amazed how music can just mold and melt to our lives to help us through or coast along side.

I am a Doubting Thomas...

"Doubting Thomas"

What will be left when I've drawn my last breath
Besides the folks I've met and the folks who've known me
Will I discover a soul-saving love
Or just the dirt above and below me

I'm a doubting Thomas
I took a promise
But I do not feel safe
Oh me of little faith

Sometimes I pray for a slap in the face
Then I beg to be spared cause I'm a coward
If there's a master of death
I bet he's holding his breath
As I show the blind and tell the deaf about his power

I'm a doubting Thomas
I can't keep my promises
Cause I don't know what's safe
Oh me of little faith

Can I be used to help others find truth
When I'm scared I'll find proof that it's a lie
Can I be led down a trail dropping bread crumbs
That prove I'm not ready to die

Please give me time to decipher the signs
Please forgive me for time that I've wasted

I'm a doubting Thomas
I'll take your promise
Though I know nothin's safe
Oh me of little faith

Please forgive me for the time I've wasted...

Huh. Time's a very precious thing isn't it?

Waiting...

My Safety-Man is coming home... I have so many mixed emotions - not for him coming home because I truly have missed him. So. Very. Much.

But how to help him through this hard news he's dealing with...

Waiting...waiting - waiting for everything.

Oh there's the door. He's home!

Welcome home my safety man! LOVE YOU!

HAPPY ST PATRICK'S DAY TAE YA!

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY TAE YA!!!

I had fun making these cute little headbands! I saw some interesting looking shamrocks online and decided that they would be easy to make in to headbands for my girls! Well then of course I decided that some of their special friends should have some as well (sorry that some of them were a 'wee bit too small)!

Hope you all had a wonderful St Patty's Day!!

Time

Just one thought tonight... as I am staying up TOO late (once again)...

I understand the concept behind Daylight Savings Time... and in the Fall I almost really like it... but I have to say... in the Spring...well it basically stinks. Like stinks rotten eggs. Has anyone ever tried to get two little girls to bed when it's still light outside and convince them that indeed it is bedtime. Or convince them that it is not time to get up yet?!

And I was just getting used to waking up and it's lovely light outside... now we're back to it being DARK Sigh.
Yep... my one thought...

I DO NOT LIKE Daylight Savings Time... "Springing Forward" - I do not like it Sam-I-Am...

Another giveaway...

Oh I just love this store... The Vintage Pearl is giving away not one but TWO $50.00 gift certificates... I SOOooooooooooooooooo LOVE THIS STORE! So I am bloggin' this to show my excitement and let ya know... plus of course it gives me an extra entry hehehehe! YAY!

I, so, heart this store! Their stuff is AMAZING! My friend gave me a gift certificate there and I just cannot decide what to put it towards yet... I keep going back and forth between this and this... oh and perhaps this - as I tell them I love them to the moon and back! All the time!

Sigh... too much to choose from - I could go on and on... but I better go comment so I can be entered in their giveaway... Oh please let me win... oh please, oh please, OH PLEASE!?!?!?

Songs...

How can a song trigger such emotions so quickly?

I am a music HOUND. I LOVE all types of music. My friends laugh at Mr. Safety-Man's and my diverse music taste. We have everything from classical, to hard rock, to some rap, to alternative, to now country (ok and that was SO hard for me to type - since I have battled liking that "type" of music for so long).

But today as I was getting some things accomplished... I put on my play list and this song came on. It has been a favorite of mine since it originally came out. But this time it came on - it had some different meaning. It was able to fit into my issues happening now, my emotions now. And I was able to release some of my feelings... just a little... but it helped.

Music - such a funny thing how it can even evoke emotions from your past, bring up un-remembered memories, change your point of view... help you deal with situations that you feel out of control over, and even help you to heal... a little at a time.

Butt Dialing?

Ok so we've all done it right? OOoops... calling someone without meaning to call? Sorry!!

Apparently with my Blackberry - I've been doing it some lately. If I call you or have called you and wasn't "there" I am so sorry!! I think I may have even called overseas once! Ok not really - but man - it's amazing how easy it is to dial on this phone.

OK so I was on my way home from a good morning out and about... I was really thinking about my sister-in-law and thinking I should call her to give her some much needed support. But my mind was going a million miles a minute and I had a tons of things to finish up before I had to get the girls from the bus stop. So the idea came and went.

Once home, I was trying to get all my errand packages inside - hung on my arms, phone in my hand, purse over my arm, keys barely grasped to open the door... talkng to Kiki was the furthest from my mind. I heard a noise... looked down and apparently had "BAG-dialed" Kiki... How did that happen? I didn't dial her number... I hadn't dialed her number since she was visiting in January. Why this phone number? Why now?

I almost hung-up. I wasn't prepared to be supportive. I didn't know what to say. How can I be there for her. Then a peace came over me... "Tell her how you feel...".

I let the phone continue to ring... Kiki answered. We talked. We cried. I felt close to her. She felt a huge bond with me. I felt that I supported her and she in turn supported me. It was exactly what she needed - she told me.

Amazing that it happened the way it had. Or do things happen for a reason?

Butt Dialing... who knew how much it could help out in a very hard situation.

Cannot seem to get my mind engaged

I have a lot of things in my head going round and round... and yet I cannot remember a thing. NOT ONE THING! I usually pride myself on my memory. I will fully admit that once I got pregnant I lost some of my memory pride... HOWEVER... I thought it was all coming back!

There's a lot of things going on here... is it enough to erase my memory? I used to multi-task so much better! I mean I ran my own database group, had tons of meetings, ran meetings, deadlines, schedules, prioritized, that was me! ugh...

Today I missed my personal training appointment. NAMASTE my bottom. I was so mad. This is the second time. I wish I could say I had a good reason. The first time missed - the girls didn't have school on Monday. On Tuesday (my appt day) I thought it was Monday all day... so miss 1. Today... well there was- absolutely no reason... at all - except my minds been very occupied lately - and I just buried myself in cleaning. Big time. Well at least the house looks good - or at least is starting to look good! Boo hoo... I know.

It seems like a lot is going on all at once. And what started as a peaceful - yet filled with thinking - type of day - has turned in to kind of a stressful day. So maybe my mind's TOO engaged? Too many decisions to make, too many unknowns, too many emotions. I guess?!

But I did get in my exercising tonight! I still cannot believe I can do some of the things I have been doing lately! It is so refreshing... it's been TOO long. YES!

FEARLESS

Well the countdown is finally coming to a close...

It's almost time...

The girls are UBER (I never say that - but it fits) EXCITED...

It's almost time...

Their first concert EVER...

It's almost time...

We're gearing up to go...

It's almost time...

Taylor Swift...how my girls love you...

It's almost time...

We'll be seeing and singing with you from the 3rd level....

IT'S TIME!!!!!!

Things that annoy...

i am not an oldest child... a mere middle child.
i have huge tendencies toward characteristics of an oldest child.
writing lists... it is an inherent part of who i am.
it helps me feel better, more controlled, centered.

...maybe it will help today.

today's list-annoyances:

~~ clutter everywhere ~~

~~ not being able to "catch-up" on things that have to get done ~~

~~ canker sores - all of 'em - but mostly the ones in my mouth that HURT ~~

~~ things that hurt my babies - ouchies in the middle of the night, feelings, external sources ~~

~~ not being a morning person ~~

~~ not being organized & being unmotivated ~~

~~ feeling sad ~~

~~receiving bad, bad, BAD news not once but twice in a short period of time ~~

~~ things that grow inside a body... that we don't know it's there - 'till...
that hurt the ones we love... that frighten us... that we cannot do anything about...
that may mean loss... that scares me. ~~

~~ being helpless ~~

~~ not being able to shut off my mind for a bit ~~

~~~~just a few annoyances for today~~~~