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Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Two songs... that really have me emotional tonight...
The first is a familiar one to most... Greenday's Time of Your Life...
http://www.ilike.com/artist/TIME+OF+YOUR+LIFE/track/GREENDAY
http://www.ilike.com/artist/TIME+OF+YOUR+LIFE/track/GREENDAY
"Another turning point;a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
So make the best of this task
and don`t ask why.
It`s not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
It`s something unpredictable
but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.
For what it`s worth,
it was worth all the while.
It`s something unpredictable
but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life."
It`s something unpredictable
but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life."
It`s something unpredictable
but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life."
A hard song for me to listen to tonight... but hey it's allowing me to get some of these feelings out... silently crying, silent & alone, sitting here, thinking about how much I will miss her, how my poor girls will be so sad without their grammy san. How much she has meant to this family. How close I have become to her... a lady of strength. I truly hope she's had the time of her life... She has added to mine...
The second song is from Skillet... Called Rest. A song that's helping me try to grasp all this crap (because that's exactly what it is)... a song that somewhere somehow is trying to give me peace... http://www.ilike.com/artist/Skillet/track/Rest (ignore the video... i don't think it's theirs)Still, soft quietly spoken voice, that persistently calls my name,
And quickens my heart to come, And I come
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of Your Grace,
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of You
Embraced in the promise of You, Is rest for the weary soul,
Releasing all that is mine I reach for You
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of Your Grace,
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of You
Take the old and You make it new, Everything I give to You,
You're the hope that can pull me through, HALLELUJAH!!!
HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH!
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of Your Grace,
And I rest in the shelter of Your love,
and I rest in the wonder of You
I love you so much San/Mom.
Please give me strength Lord. You are the hope that can pull me through.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Freeport photos...
LL Bean was amazing and so many changes! I couldn't believe it! We were not so impressed with the poor moose on the wall... WE LOVE MOOSE!! The children's section was FABULOUS... even the bears were attacking the girls with love... it was so much fun! Check out the new fish tank with the observation "bubble"! AMAZING.
Some Yo Yo's on a quilt...the EXACT thing I want to do with my girl's fave shirts... My friend, Amy and Grammy San's going to have to re-teach me...(pleeeease?). Check out the church... established 1789!! WOW! I love that history! Spring was also arriving...DAFFODILS!
The Inn where we stayed... but the best parts that kept us going... Chris' MOXIE - Maine soda and Kymmie's Lobstah roll... yummmmm BABYyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!
Reflections...Part 1
So I thought I would talk about different "happenings" or events that took place on our 12-day trip to Blue Hill, ME.
I remember actually feeling a sense of excitement upon our departure to Maine. I always get excited when I know I am going to Maine or Utah. This is where our roots are... where we (Safety-Man & I) grew up (well New England). I almost felt guilty for being excited to get there - but then again I wanted to go... TO BE THERE, to HELP in any way I could. I wanted to be able to DO something to help my family. To ease this shock and pain we feel.
I forgot how much I love New England (or Utah - same climate) Spring. I truly miss the changes of seasons - but mostly Fall and Spring. Spring is such a time of renewal and here - a time we need renewal. I just love watching the earth come alive - and northern spring flowers are my absolute f a v o r i t e!!!
Upon arriving in Maine we went to Freeport where Mr Safety-Man grew up. I knew it was going to be cold... but upon first arrival it wasn't so bad!! (Yes I saying this...I, the one, whom is always cold!) But later that night... WHooweee it was FREEZIN'!
Being in Freeport was a nice ease in to an emotional week. We toured around - of course heading to LL Bean was our highlight! Wow has that place changed! AMAZING. We headed to the Bean outlet as well - found a quilt we fell in love with (we've been wanting a Mariner's Compass quilt since) - but left it there. Sigh. We also noticed a "Lids" store (baseball caps) - not open and we really wanted some Red Sox baseball hats. We ate at one of the best pubs I've ever eaten at. I love GOOD, pub food - it was really hardy and SOooooooo yummmy. A nice beginning. I knew the next days would be difficult but it was good to start this way. The next morning we headed to Augusta for Uncle Bill's interment ceremony at the Veterans Memorial cemetary.
That night before heading out, when all were alseep in our New England Inn room... I thought about Maine, I thought about what I liked and loved about being there & of course what I didn't love. I reflected upon the past few weeks and the whirlwind of emotions, discussions, phone calls and planning. And I just had to write something down (remember now it was late and i was tired...but I copied it down as i wrote it)...
Things I love about Maine
1. Spring flowers
2. Pine- Spruce smell
3. LL Bean
4. Ancient-ness 1700's + History
5. Turning on the cold water side of the tap and when u drink it your teeth almost freeze off - aaaah refreshing
6. The rock Mts (and rock cliffs lining the roads)
7. The woods
8. The Sea + Bay
9. Freeport/Yarmouth - birthplace of Mr Safety-Man
10. LL Bean (again... see I was TIRED) so will add another...
10. Walking in the woods inspecting fairy houses with my girls, moss, lichen
11. Moose (to which Kyky added the next AM X wrong! MEESE!
12. Camden - where we got engaged
13. Rockland - where ^I was introduced^ to Schooners + Bar Harbor where Jer wrked
14. The Heritage - my first time on a Schooner
15. Boat smell on my Safety-Man (one of the reasons I fell in love with him)
16. Blueberry fields
17. Rocky Beaches - collecting rocks (a favorite pastime of mine and my girls)
18. Lighthouses
19. Blue Hill - Salt Pond, Arcady DownEast (now called BarnCastle)
20. Our family (most of all)
Things I hate about Maine (oops it WAS late - we don't use this word hate...)
1. Verona Narrows Bridge - my nemesis (shivers even typing this)
2. The Cold
3. Being so far from family
4. No good warm H2O beaches
5. Did I mention the COLD?
(so apparently I was pretty cold that night...) AND I am ok with COLD but only if the soft fluffy stuff's coming with it... and not the aftermath of shoveling that stuff! Maybe that should be added to the dislike list?
The next morning we got to go to "Lids" and get our Red Sox baseball caps - it was neat seeing our different personalities through what we chose!
And then off to Augusta.
I remember actually feeling a sense of excitement upon our departure to Maine. I always get excited when I know I am going to Maine or Utah. This is where our roots are... where we (Safety-Man & I) grew up (well New England). I almost felt guilty for being excited to get there - but then again I wanted to go... TO BE THERE, to HELP in any way I could. I wanted to be able to DO something to help my family. To ease this shock and pain we feel.
I forgot how much I love New England (or Utah - same climate) Spring. I truly miss the changes of seasons - but mostly Fall and Spring. Spring is such a time of renewal and here - a time we need renewal. I just love watching the earth come alive - and northern spring flowers are my absolute f a v o r i t e!!!
Upon arriving in Maine we went to Freeport where Mr Safety-Man grew up. I knew it was going to be cold... but upon first arrival it wasn't so bad!! (Yes I saying this...I, the one, whom is always cold!) But later that night... WHooweee it was FREEZIN'!
Being in Freeport was a nice ease in to an emotional week. We toured around - of course heading to LL Bean was our highlight! Wow has that place changed! AMAZING. We headed to the Bean outlet as well - found a quilt we fell in love with (we've been wanting a Mariner's Compass quilt since) - but left it there. Sigh. We also noticed a "Lids" store (baseball caps) - not open and we really wanted some Red Sox baseball hats. We ate at one of the best pubs I've ever eaten at. I love GOOD, pub food - it was really hardy and SOooooooo yummmy. A nice beginning. I knew the next days would be difficult but it was good to start this way. The next morning we headed to Augusta for Uncle Bill's interment ceremony at the Veterans Memorial cemetary.
That night before heading out, when all were alseep in our New England Inn room... I thought about Maine, I thought about what I liked and loved about being there & of course what I didn't love. I reflected upon the past few weeks and the whirlwind of emotions, discussions, phone calls and planning. And I just had to write something down (remember now it was late and i was tired...but I copied it down as i wrote it)...
Things I love about Maine
1. Spring flowers
2. Pine- Spruce smell
3. LL Bean
4. Ancient-ness 1700's + History
5. Turning on the cold water side of the tap and when u drink it your teeth almost freeze off - aaaah refreshing
6. The rock Mts (and rock cliffs lining the roads)
7. The woods
8. The Sea + Bay
9. Freeport/Yarmouth - birthplace of Mr Safety-Man
10. LL Bean (again... see I was TIRED) so will add another...
10. Walking in the woods inspecting fairy houses with my girls, moss, lichen
11. Moose (to which Kyky added the next AM X wrong! MEESE!
12. Camden - where we got engaged
13. Rockland - where ^I was introduced^ to Schooners + Bar Harbor where Jer wrked
14. The Heritage - my first time on a Schooner
15. Boat smell on my Safety-Man (one of the reasons I fell in love with him)
16. Blueberry fields
17. Rocky Beaches - collecting rocks (a favorite pastime of mine and my girls)
18. Lighthouses
19. Blue Hill - Salt Pond, Arcady DownEast (now called BarnCastle)
20. Our family (most of all)
Things I hate about Maine (oops it WAS late - we don't use this word hate...)
1. Verona Narrows Bridge - my nemesis (shivers even typing this)
2. The Cold
3. Being so far from family
4. No good warm H2O beaches
5. Did I mention the COLD?
(so apparently I was pretty cold that night...) AND I am ok with COLD but only if the soft fluffy stuff's coming with it... and not the aftermath of shoveling that stuff! Maybe that should be added to the dislike list?
The next morning we got to go to "Lids" and get our Red Sox baseball caps - it was neat seeing our different personalities through what we chose!
And then off to Augusta.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Re-Juvenate
So today's been a day of re-grouping, rejuvenating, re-evaluating, and realizing.
I just cannot believe how tired I am from all the emotional strain and it's not even my parent!
Mr. Safety-man's handling things well. The hardest for me (us) is seeing this incredibly STRONG woman go from doing everything on her own to barely being able to do much - but atill think, believe, & hope she can continue on her own. It is so hard to watch her go thru all his and then have to watch Safety-man do the same bleck. I wish this on no-one.
But since Grammy San had two major appts (homehealth care assessment & hospice volunteer coordinator) and it was to be a "big day" for San... The girls & I went to Bluehill library, a local park on the water (sighhhhh gorgeous), a bit of grocery shopping, & walking around tiny "main", downtown!
Oh it was fun. At the library (have i ever said how much i love, love, LOVE libraries and this one's OLD!) we did some research on Ky's speech, did some homework sheets, read, looked at the lovely children's artwork and just enjoyed ourselves. Got some neat stuff outta there too. Then a lovely afternoon in the park- sun finally out temp's rising from 48 earlier in the day to 58 down to 35 tonight...Brrrrrrr! time to bundle up!!! Watching the girls run and play, giggle and argue, need eachother and need to be independent...listening to the shore sounds... I just needed that to reboot, reprogram, rejuvenate. My girls sometime drain me but for the most part they give me so much....so much of themselves and just plain make me happy.
But as i reflect on today after hearing the home healthcare nurse i realized that i have precious time, with my mother-in-law, with my girls as they are young, with my family all together... That it's so important to tell those i love that i DO love them and my life wouldn't be the same or as wonderful without them.
Yes. That is how i will Re-member things...the love i got to grow strpnger while beong up here-ah in Blue Hill, Maine.
(please excuse the errors... Doing this on the iPhone is NOT an easy task...no internet connection except rhis phone! Heck MY cell phone hasn't even worked!!)
I just cannot believe how tired I am from all the emotional strain and it's not even my parent!
Mr. Safety-man's handling things well. The hardest for me (us) is seeing this incredibly STRONG woman go from doing everything on her own to barely being able to do much - but atill think, believe, & hope she can continue on her own. It is so hard to watch her go thru all his and then have to watch Safety-man do the same bleck. I wish this on no-one.
But since Grammy San had two major appts (homehealth care assessment & hospice volunteer coordinator) and it was to be a "big day" for San... The girls & I went to Bluehill library, a local park on the water (sighhhhh gorgeous), a bit of grocery shopping, & walking around tiny "main", downtown!
Oh it was fun. At the library (have i ever said how much i love, love, LOVE libraries and this one's OLD!) we did some research on Ky's speech, did some homework sheets, read, looked at the lovely children's artwork and just enjoyed ourselves. Got some neat stuff outta there too. Then a lovely afternoon in the park- sun finally out temp's rising from 48 earlier in the day to 58 down to 35 tonight...Brrrrrrr! time to bundle up!!! Watching the girls run and play, giggle and argue, need eachother and need to be independent...listening to the shore sounds... I just needed that to reboot, reprogram, rejuvenate. My girls sometime drain me but for the most part they give me so much....so much of themselves and just plain make me happy.
But as i reflect on today after hearing the home healthcare nurse i realized that i have precious time, with my mother-in-law, with my girls as they are young, with my family all together... That it's so important to tell those i love that i DO love them and my life wouldn't be the same or as wonderful without them.
Yes. That is how i will Re-member things...the love i got to grow strpnger while beong up here-ah in Blue Hill, Maine.
(please excuse the errors... Doing this on the iPhone is NOT an easy task...no internet connection except rhis phone! Heck MY cell phone hasn't even worked!!)
Thursday, April 8, 2010
And awayyyyyyyyyyy we go...
Well everything but the girls shoes and toiletries are packed up...
Hard to believe this time I've dreaded to come is here. We are off to visit and probably say goodbye to my Safety-Man's momma. It will be extremely emotional for all of us... I am sure it will definitely be hard. I am sure it will be draining and sad. But I also hope that we have some wonderful, lasting memories. Some happy, memorable times.
I am looking forward to going to the Grasshopper Shoppe, and some sweet local shops in Blue Hill. I am MOST looking forward to seeing our loved ones and walking, playing, being at the seaside at Mimi's (Mr Safety-Man's grandma) house. And of course seeing the bed and breakfast mansion we almost bought - Arcady DownEast - our dream home... A girl can dream right?!
Sigh... ok here we go... We can do this...
Hard to believe this time I've dreaded to come is here. We are off to visit and probably say goodbye to my Safety-Man's momma. It will be extremely emotional for all of us... I am sure it will definitely be hard. I am sure it will be draining and sad. But I also hope that we have some wonderful, lasting memories. Some happy, memorable times.
I am looking forward to going to the Grasshopper Shoppe, and some sweet local shops in Blue Hill. I am MOST looking forward to seeing our loved ones and walking, playing, being at the seaside at Mimi's (Mr Safety-Man's grandma) house. And of course seeing the bed and breakfast mansion we almost bought - Arcady DownEast - our dream home... A girl can dream right?!
Sigh... ok here we go... We can do this...
Thursday, April 1, 2010
A Sign... A symbol... A precious cardinal
While we were at camp the second day. The girls and I were playing a fun game of Clue! One of my one and only favorite board games... (there was even a Mickey Mouse Tower of Terror Clue game at Fort Wilderness I wanted SOooo badly!!! I would love that one!). I digress... as usual - sorry!
As we were playing our game. I couldn't believe what fluttered in to view. A cardinal. A plump, red cardinal. This might not be that significant to anyone but me and my Dear Mr Safety-Man... but it truly IS incredible.
Cardinals have always been a special bird, a favorite of mine and also of my Nain's. I used to sit in my grandmother's (Nain) dining room, at her GIANT bay window and watch the birds at her big birdfeeder. It was always a thrill to see the cardinal. So unique. So vibrant. Just like I always thought of my Nain. The most amazing woman in the world.
She unfortunately passed away of a brain tumor. And it has seemed that through many trials and tribulations - I have seen glimpses of cardinals in the oddest places and times. It makes me feel like she is still with me... helping me through... well life.
So right now - we face losing Chris' mom to a darn brain tumor. I watched my Nain die - someone I treasure more than I could possibly explain - from the same. Now we deal with it again... And as we are trying to heal from the stress on our mini - vacation, at Fort Wilderness, I see a cardinal. Mr. Safety-Man and I exchange a non-verbal, all knowing look. Sighhhhhh and tears.
As my family and I watch the cardinal I was trying to take a photo of him... I cannot find him. I zoom out... zoom in... can't get the photo... The cardinal is going to go away... and then!
As we were playing our game. I couldn't believe what fluttered in to view. A cardinal. A plump, red cardinal. This might not be that significant to anyone but me and my Dear Mr Safety-Man... but it truly IS incredible.
Cardinals have always been a special bird, a favorite of mine and also of my Nain's. I used to sit in my grandmother's (Nain) dining room, at her GIANT bay window and watch the birds at her big birdfeeder. It was always a thrill to see the cardinal. So unique. So vibrant. Just like I always thought of my Nain. The most amazing woman in the world.
She unfortunately passed away of a brain tumor. And it has seemed that through many trials and tribulations - I have seen glimpses of cardinals in the oddest places and times. It makes me feel like she is still with me... helping me through... well life.
So right now - we face losing Chris' mom to a darn brain tumor. I watched my Nain die - someone I treasure more than I could possibly explain - from the same. Now we deal with it again... And as we are trying to heal from the stress on our mini - vacation, at Fort Wilderness, I see a cardinal. Mr. Safety-Man and I exchange a non-verbal, all knowing look. Sighhhhhh and tears.
As my family and I watch the cardinal I was trying to take a photo of him... I cannot find him. I zoom out... zoom in... can't get the photo... The cardinal is going to go away... and then!
BOOM!
It flies right in to my zoomed view... like someone picked it up and kind of plopped it there. I wanted one more shot... again lost it. and...
BOOM!
Again it was "placed" in the shot.
My symbol. My faith. My sign... from our Heavenly Father and my Nain...
We will get through this.
Giveaway...
Are ya sick of me bloggin' about give-aways?
Well .. SOMEDAY I will win one of these! I will! I will! So The Vintage Pearl is having another necklace giveaway! Special for her birthday! She turned 31 on the 31st of March!
Check it out!!
http://thevintagepearl.blogspot.com/2010/03/its-my-birthday-giveaway.html
Oh I would love this beauty for our 15th... yes you read that correctly...
Thanks for "bearing" with me - posting about giveaways...
Well .. SOMEDAY I will win one of these! I will! I will! So The Vintage Pearl is having another necklace giveaway! Special for her birthday! She turned 31 on the 31st of March!
Check it out!!
http://thevintagepearl.blogspot.com/2010/03/its-my-birthday-giveaway.html
Oh I would love this beauty for our 15th... yes you read that correctly...
FIFTEENTH ANNIVERSARY!
I cannot believe it!
Thanks for "bearing" with me - posting about giveaways...
...yet again!
"I will TRIUMPH" some day! hahaha
"I will TRIUMPH" some day! hahaha
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